Insomnia and mixed feelings

It's 4 in the morning. And I'm awake. I think I managed about 2 hours worth of dozing, but my mind is going to fast to rest. I hate nights like this. I found out some interesting news due to a mis-sent email. It seems that my ex-husband has remarried already and is dealing with immigration for his new wife. Huh. I'm not really sure how I feel about this. I mean, we've been divorced for a year, so I'm a little offended that he found someone so quickly, especially in such a small community. But, I'm also really happy for him. I sincerely want him to be happy and successful. But I'm also really pissed off because I've been trying to get a hold of him for a couple of months to find out some things and he won't return my calls or emails. All I really want to know is how my dogs are doing. And though it does kind of tick me off that another woman is acting as their mommy, in a way it's also reassuring that they've got someone else to love them. Plus there are a few things that I haven't heard updates on. Like when some of my stuff is going to get here (oh sure, it's nothing really major, mostly coffee mugs and stuff that I've collected over the years, but there is sentimental value attached to them, for me any way) and when exactly he's going to refinance the house. Especially since the usual legal turn around time on that in cases of divorce is one year. So, now I have to figure out ways to harass him into answering me. I figure that if I ever fall asleep, I can call him in the morning. Morning my time, that is. Since he's 4 hours behind me my 8 am phone call may not be very welcome. Hehehe. Yeah, it's mean and childish, but since he's intentionally avoiding me, I'm not sure what else I can do. Is there a way to make anonymous calls on a cell phone? Hmm, that gives me an idea. I think I still have a calling card lying around here somewhere...that would be anonymous. Seems pointless when I'm using a cell though. Oh well, the things we do to find out the stuff that's important to us! Gods, I wish I had some way to make myself fall asleep. I'm thinking of really mean things that I can do, but I really don't wanna go there. Let's hope that thinking doesn't count when all things are tallied up at the end.