Playing with Templates

So, as you may (or may not) have noticed, I've been playing with these templates. I kinda like this one, but I dunno, it's just not quite it, you know? I'm not sure what exactly I'm looking for. I like the dark stuff, but that does tend to make it difficult to read. So, I guess I'm looking for a happy medium. Unfortunately, all the "happy mediums" that I've found are kind of fru-fru. Those just don't seem to fit "me". I'm not exactly a girly-girl. Maybe I should just find one of some really cute guy and put that up. At least then when I'm checking it over I've got something yummy to look at. Mmmm, eye candy! Maybe I just don't have a clue what I want and I'm hoping that I'll see something and say "That's it!" I want cute, I want funny, I want pretty, but I don't want pink and girly girl and barbie doll kind of things. I want edgy and crazy. But not too crazy. You see, I don't know what I want.

On another note, I had a great big huge talk with Tim yesterday. I made it perfectly clear that his idea of waiting and waiting and waiting to have me involved in his life, including his family, is not going to work. I made it perfectly clear that if he insists that I move out and we go back to "dating" to make things "right" for his kids, that there wasn't going to be any "dating". At least not with me. Because as I see it, he and his little monsters would be tossing me out. And I'm sure as hell not going to date some guy that through me out. Any way, I did actually put it nicer than that. At least at first. I think I finally got some points acrossed. Like this plan of his isn't going to work because the kids already have an impression of me, and us living separately isn't going to change that. However, given the chance to get to know me, that might. And I think he finally realizes that if he wants us to work, that he's going to have to make some sacrifices as well. And if he wants a future with me, then he had damned well better fight for it. Like I told him, the kids would come around eventually, however, they'd come around quicker if they realized that 1) I'm here to stay and 2) that I make their dad happy, that I matter to their father. But having him hide me away whenever they're around or whenever he calls me sneaking outside so they don't hear, isn't showing them those things. Yep, gave him a big long lecture. I'm now thinking of joining the lecturing circuit. I kind of feel bad for the poor guy, he got stuck listening to me complain and nag and he didn't even have any alcohol to dull the pain. ;)